Hat Hair: February Album Writing Month

by Marco Aziel

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14 songs written and recorded between January 24th and February 20th, 2015, in what was at times a frantic and stressful manner.

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released March 1, 2015

Background vocals on tracks 1 and 14 by Kim Hildebrand
Bass on track 5 by Jake Croop
All material written, recorded, mixed, and produced by Marco Aziel

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Marco Aziel Ypsilanti, Michigan

The introspective indie/punk solo project of that guy in Daddy and the Long Legs. Wanna get in touch? info at marcoaziel dot com

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Track Name: Not Out of Breath
Well they've got me by the hook
But I'm not quite out the water yet
And I'll fight until my dying breath against it

Well they got me by the hook
But I'm not quite out the water yet
And I'll fight until my dying breath against it
And when I'm hanging on that line
With their fingers 'round my spine
Oh, I'll be flailing like a madman in their grip

'Cause I'd rather be a hero than a martyr
But I'd rather be a martyr than a disillusioned kid
I want my children to be thinking I was the best that ever lived
And so I'll never let them take me alive

I've been giving it my best
Been trying to distract myself
Been trying not to act like I feel worthless
'Cause the show must go on,
So I'll keep singing my songs
Contain my breakdown 'til I'm safe behind the curtains

'Cause I'd rather be a hero than a martyr
But I'd rather be a martyr than a disillusioned kid
I want my children to be thinking I was the best that ever lived
And so I'll never let them take me alive

Exhausted, but I'm not out of breath
No I'm not finished yet, No
Exhausted, but I'm not out of breath
No I'm not finished yet, No

Well they've got me by the hook
But I'm not quite out the water yet
And I'll fight until my dying breath against it
Track Name: The Anatomy of a Bad Habit
It's never too late
I'm teaching myself the hardest thing I've ever done
Patience, patience

And when I think
My time to reach my destination
My destination is beyond my grasp
Is beyond my grasp

"Excuses, excuses," She said,
"Never think about it again"
"Excuses, excuses," She said,
"Never think about it again"

Encouraged by the prospect
I remembered how to be myself
And start counting back
Start counting back

I relapsed, I relapsed, I failed
To reach, to reach the holy grail

Throwing off the thoughts
The anxieties
I'll give myself a kiss
I'll give myself a kiss
'cause time is buckling
time is buckling
time is buckling
time is buckling
Track Name: Plagued
When I look at you I see
A thousand things I couldn't be
One of them who I need
But things are never as they seem

You're the ghost that haunts these walls
You're the plague inside my body
You're a crooked cop I'm just
A criminal, you've got me
Yeah you've got me

When I kiss your lips I know
Beneath my skin and in my bones
You'll never be your own
Just a sum of your mistakes untold

You're the ghost that haunts these walls
You're the plague inside my body
You're the crooked cop who locked
Me inside this cell, I'm rotting
I'm rotting

When I feel your touch I sink
Like cinderblocks strapped to my feet
At the bottom of the sea
I'm feeling clean, I'm feeling clean

You plague me
You plague me
You plague me
You plague me
Track Name: Let This Day Be Cursed
I'm burning through the coal as fast as it comes
I'm lighting the midnight oil at noon
I march to the beat of the drum
But the tempo will be slowing down again soon

Let no joyful voice be heard
Let no man look up at the sky with hope
Let this day be cursed

I'm trying to conserve my energy
When it hits me like a lightning strike
Maybe if it didn't burn me out so quickly
I wonder what meaningful purpose I'd find

Let no joyful voice be heard
Let no man look up at the sky with hope
Let this day be cursed

Every time I blink it's a new day
I can't help this feeling I'm missing out
I left pieces of myself in the ashtray
I can't tell what I'm lying to myself about

Let no joyful voice be heard
Let no man look up at the sky with hope
Let this day be cursed
Track Name: Hat Hair
It doesn't matter where I go
I can't escape my phone
I'm stuck inside loop
It's got me stressing through the roof
And yeah I know I missed your call
But girl it's not the goddamn law
To text you back in five
I'll hit you when I have the time

H A T
H A I R

Oh Lord I've got so much to clean
From head to toe I'm feeling filthy
I need to throw some stuff away
Cuz I've been stressing all damn day
But what's the stuff I really need
Am I high maintenance or just greedy
I guess I'll never really know
Until that trash is on the road

H A T
H A I R

And when I go to play a show
It doesn't matter of I'm cold
I always want wear a hat
The stress is crawling up my back
Because I wanna look my best
But I know my hairs a mess
I think I just might take it off
My new motto is fuck it all

H A T
H A I R
Track Name: Vice
I remember the notes we passed
Like the book of revelations
We stand on opposite sides of the scale
Or together against our ballast

I'm haunted, you're still in my dreams
Your slow nervous breath
And the warmth on my cheek
Remain Silent when the staircase creeks
I wish that I wasn't so timid and weak

I remember the day that you left me
Like a trail that leads to nowhere
And the sidewalk disappeared
Like a story without an ending

I'm haunted, you're still in my dreams
Your slow nervous breath
And the warmth on my cheek
Remain Silent when the staircase creeks
I wish that I wasn't so timid and weak

I remember a walk in the park
I remember a family vacation
We were so conscious of ourselves
So aware of our beating hearts

And I tell myself, "no regrets"
But if that were true, I wouldn't let myself be

I'm haunted, you're still in my dreams
Your slow nervous breath
And the warmth on my cheek
Remain Silent when the staircase creeks
I wish that I wasn't so timid and weak

I'm haunted, you're still in my dreams
Your slow nervous breath
And the warmth on my cheek
Remain Silent when the staircase creeks
I wish that I wasn't so timid and weak

The sound of your voice, and the ink on your side
The color and cloth are a vice in my mind
I want to wake up, I have life to attend to
Don't make me say this, I'm trying to forget you

I'm trying to forget you
Track Name: Sing Along
There's a lot of things I want to say
I guess I'll clench my teeth
I don't want to waste your precious time
I'll keep this short and sweet
What's with all these people always acting so damn mean?
Life is a highway, I want to crash into a tree

Why can't we all get along?
Why don't we all sing along?

Ooh, ooh
Track Name: Read a Book
I was a nervous boy, even when I got old
So when I fell in love, I never told a soul
I wasn't good with words like I was with guns
So our life of love, well it really wasn't that nice

Oh darling, I miss you all the time
Don't worry about me I'm gonna be dead

With my feelings a secret she met other men
I kept a careful watch of everyone she met
One guy slapped her up, I filled him with lead
I told him not to hurt a single hair on her scalp

Oh darling I miss you all the time.
Don't worry bout me I'm gonna be dead

One thing that scared me more than fear of rejection
Was being put to death by way of lethal injection
I only tried to be your shining knight
Some people call me wrong, but you, you call me
you, you call me, you, you call me a sociopath
Track Name: Antisocial Blues
Well I'm not in a talking mood today
I'm not in a talking mood today
I got like six texts on my phone
Well I'm not gonna read 'em, just delete 'em,
say my battery was low

I'ma tell the truth
I'm a fickle man
I won't lie to you
This was not my plan
Oh, antisocial blues
Oh, antisocial blues

I'm trying to spend some time alone
Yeah I'm trying to spend some time alone
I'm sorry if this ain't what you hoped
Well I'm tellin' you to beat it señorita I said hit the road

I'ma tell the truth
I'm a fickle man
I won't lie to you
This was not my plan
Oh, antisocial blues
Oh, antisocial blues

I'ma tell the truth
I'm a fickle man
I won't lie to you
This was not my plan
Oh, antisocial blues
Oh, antisocial blues
Track Name: Stop For Gas
Staring out the window
It's a long drive coming home
Even if we only stop for gas
She passes me a water
It's half empty, it's our last
I guess we'll have to stop for another pack

Goes inside the station
She's buying snacks, I'm pumping gas
she somehow spends more money than me
Some cake, some chips, some cigs, some drinks, and a little bit of candy
Welcome to the party on our new tees

She asks to make another stop
And this one is important
She needs to put her bare feet in the grass
I've never understood the cigarettes
But I've never seen something like her silhouette
Burning one down and standing in the sunset

River at the rest stop
It's meant to be, I can't believe
Within a minute, we get asked to leave
Sopping wet and on the go
Good thing she bought some drier clothes
Welcome to the party on my body

Staring out the window
It's a long drive coming home
We'll never even get there if we're lucky
Track Name: Twelve Days to Go
I get so caught up in thinking she wants someone I'm not
So I try to be the one she needs and forget about what I'm not
I'd like to say she loves me for exactly who I am
But it's hard to be that man

And I'm trying to stop feeling so blue
It's easier to spend Christmas eve at home
Than spend it outside in the cold,
Standing under a mistletoe alone
She said I'll kiss your lips right through the phone

And I'll be sitting here with my mistletoe
All twelve days of Christmas left to go
And I put my phone beneath the tree
And I'll be staying up all night on Christmas eve
And I'll be waiting for your call
And staring at the wall of snow outside
And I'll try not to fall asleep

I'm trying to stop feeling so blue
(I'm waiting)
It's easier to spend Christmas eve at home
(I'm waiting for your call)
Than spend it outside in the cold
(You're making me anxious)
Standing under a mistletoe alone
(What if you don't miss me at all?)

I'm trying to stop feeling so blue
(I'm waiting)
It's easier to spend Christmas eve at home
(I'm waiting for your call)
Than spend it outside in the cold
(You're making me anxious)
Standing under a mistletoe alone
(What if you don't miss me at all?)
Track Name: Fade In, Fade Out
Fade in, fade out
Go easy on me
Let the curtains draw slow
At the end of the scene
Fade in, fade out
I'm not as strong as I seem
I'll come and I'll go
And you won't feel a thing

Fade in, fade out
You will feel no pain
If the push and the pull
They both feel the same
Fade in, fade out
Let's both walk away
Don't turn around
Please don't be afraid

Fade in, fade out
In a rainbow of gray
Swallowed in mist
And rinsed by the rain
Fade in, fade out
It's the simplest way
No ripping or tearing
Just fade away
Track Name: Still Life
Lay me down with the flowers and pots
Useless trinkets on plain tablecloth
Get the light just right
Make me look nice
And then freeze me
Eat me alive
Make me still life

I can't handle all the smoke in the room
Am I walking in circles or have I just never moved?
It's so cold outside, but I still need the air
So come smoke on the porch
I'll let you play with my hair
I'm so sore

Am I a pressed flower?
Track Name: With Weather Like This, Can You Really Blame Me?
I just can't stay dry today
I'm locked out in the pouring rain
I give you all my love
And you won't say hi to me
Well this winter's killing me
I hardly slept a wink last night
I'm trying to get a grip, yeah

I can't say I'm lost
'Cause I don't care where I am
I don't need a map
If I have no destination

Can't get up, too tired today
I give up it's all the same
No matter how I try
I still can't change a thing
'Cause I'm still stuck in the same routine
Wake up go back to sleep
I hardly leave my room
And I've worn the same shirt all week

I can't say I'm lost
'Cause I don't care where I am
I don't need a map
If I have no destination

I'm not depressed
It's just the weather
I'm a mess
And you're no better

I'm not depressed (I'm not depressed)
It's just the weather (It's just the weather)
I'm a mess (I'm a mess)
And you're no better (And you're no better)

I can't say I'm lost (I'm not depressed)
'Cause I don't care where I am (It's just the weather)
I don't need a map (I'm a mess)
If I have no destination (And you're no better)
I can't say I'm lost (I'm not depressed)
'Cause I don't care where I am (It's just the weather)
I don't need a map (I'm a mess)
If I have no destination (And you're no better)